thecrookedgirl:

For the longest time I hated the idea of having a “best” friend. Because, well, I have quite a few good friends and it seemed hurtful to single one out as my “best” one.

Then a few weeks ago, I started really thinking about who my true friends really are. I started thinking that maybe I did need to define who was my best friend. Because honestly, having so many close friends is chaotic. It’s very hard for me to make friends, but once I have them, I find I’m very good at getting close to people. And I’m starting to not like that. I’m starting to dislike how many people know so much personal information about me. And so, once I started thinking about all of this, I realize who my best friend is. Her name is Kailey. 

I’ve known Kailey for less than a year. I’ve only met Kailey once. And yet I can say with complete certainty that (excluding Alex, because he’s on an entirely different level) she is my best friend. I know this because I know Kailey, and Kailey knows me. I trust her with all that I am, and I can (and do) talk to her about everything and anything, and know without a shadow of a doubt that she will never, ever judge me. And it’s easy to say that about a friend sometimes, but it’s an entirely different thing to truly know it in your heart. I honestly believe that Kailey is the girl I have been “searching” for, if you will. She’s the coolest girl I know. She has absolutely perfect music taste, and an impeccable sense of style. She’s smart and loves Jesus. She reads books and drinks tea (and coffee too). She loves the city at night and devotionals in the mornings. She paints and she writes and she’s absolutely beautiful. Essentially, Kailey is everything that I strive to be in a woman. But she’s not perfect, and she knows it. And even though parts of me long to have the kind of talent and brains that she has—I am never envious of her. And I think that is a sign of something very special. Envy is one of my biggest struggles, but when it comes to Kailey, even though she’s is without a doubt the most awesome girl I’ve ever known, there’s no part of me that hates myself because of who she is. And that’s a really big deal for me. Kailey brings out the best in me, and she never fails to make me feel beautiful and loved and wonderful. We have the most amazing conversations that I’ve ever had with anyone, and they are always open and honest, like she is.

I know this is a really long reply, that you’ve probably stopped reading by now, but I had to be thorough in this answer. Does all this mean I value my other good friends any less? Of course not. But I’m a firm believer that some things need to be defined, and this is one of them. So Kailey, if you’re reading this, God created something truly magnificent when He made you, and I love you from the bottom of my heart.

I can’t even begin or think of a reply to this right now because I am so lost for words, but I love you Anna. And you are my best friend. I love you, and I feel exactly the same way about you. God has blessed me with you, and someday I hope to write down something as beautiful as this to try to explain how much you mean to me.